I can’t tell what is happening in my life and where I dissapeared. I don’t know actually. But I can tell you that I’m happier than I was. I enjoy so much having a “normal” job, new friends, colleagues, new surrounding. Everything is so interesting and fresh.
I can’t really explain even to myself what is going on in my life. I can’t define feelings, thoughts. It’s completely new. It’s not good and not bad. That’s just the way it is. On the other hand, I feel that I’m more aware of what I want and what I do.
I travel much more. I visit one new town per month in my home country and even hope to go abroad for a couple of days in May. I’m about to build my plans for longer period than couple of months and I’m not afraid anymore of undefined state of my life.
And one more thing :). When I came into the town where I live now I had no joy from living here. It may be because of winter, though I love snow, may be because of my state. But actually it doesn’t matter why, now I see it completely different. It’s so charming. I love this city, really. And I want to share a couple of pictures with you. Enjoy :)
p.s. If you want to visit my city, just drop me a line and I will be your guide :). It’s somewhere in Europe, I can give you details privately.
I used to understand that I had the ability to stop thinking about one thing by consciously choosing to preoccupy my mind with thinking about something else. But I had no idea that it only took 90 seconds for me to have an emotional circuit triggered, flush a physiological response through my body and then flush completely out of me. We can all learn that we can take full responsibility for what thoughts we are thinking and what emotional circuitry we are feeling. Knowing this and acting on this can lead us into feeling a wonderful sense of well-being and peacefulness. ~Jill Bolte Taylor
The best video of this kind I’ve ever seen. It definitely worth spreading.
(originally from: http://www.ted.com/talks/jill_bolte_taylor_s_powerful_stroke_of_insight.html)
I was away for one week. I was in my dreams. I was in the world where you can be whole thing with nature, the world where you can leave all your troubles behind.. where you can just be…..
I miss it so much.. I miss the feeling of incredible silence under water, observing jumping net of sunlight there. I miss unthinkable sense of unity with everything that arises in me so easily and often when I’m a part of that world. I miss a light-hearted look of the fishes, the whole world that opens when you dive into the water… observing the sky from the water surface lying on my back… the silent enjoying of sunrise with complete strangers… sense of incredible harmony and security. I miss a thousand of things, but I’m happy that I know about existence of such world and soon I will be back.